"Life With 3 Under 3"

"Addison 2 Year Photo Shoot"

2012-01-27T23:37:00.000-08:00

Okay okay I wouldn't really call it a photo shoot, considering I took the photos. Let's be honest I know I'm no photographer! I do have to say though I didn't do to bad. I'm going with a "Fairy Princess" theme this year for her 2nd birthday. I'm doing a princess and knights theme. I wanted a gender nuetral party. Addison tends to have alot of friends that are BOYS. Hmmm this better not become a pattern :) Anyways take a look below at the photos I got.......

"Devin's Having Surgery"

2011-11-03T23:28:00.000-07:00

I can't believe my little dude has to have surgery. I am so so scared for this and just pray that everything runs smoothly. Devin goes in the morning of November 9th to be prepped for surgery. Please keep him in your prayers and thoughts! I appreciate all of my family, friends, and my ward that have already offered a helping hand in advance :) thank you!!

"Me And My Little Girl"

2011-10-30T23:22:00.000-07:00

I loved this picture of Addi and I the day before halloween at Granny and grandpa's house!! All of my kids were farm animals this year hence the name "Duncan Baby Farm" on my blog :) I figured it was fitting considering we have 3 kids under 3. So my little Addison was the cow! This costume is size 9-12 month, she is just our little petite girl! Back when she was in the NICU they used to call her a little pixy because she was just so danty and tiny, not much has changed. I am just so grateful to have a little girl to call my daughter! She is so full of life and is just hilarious. Addi has such a presence about her that just lights up a room, especially her extra cheesy grin :) She makes me want to be the best woman I can be. I want to be the best example to her as a duaghter, wife, mother, and sister!! She inspires me to work hard at obtaining all of these qualities that she already exudes! Sometimes I wonder who really is the example to who. I learn far more from my beautiful daughter sometimes then I feel she learns from me. Thank you Addison for being my precious daughter and always putting a smile on my face. You are my best girl and I will love you forever and always!! Love Mommy

"Weight Loss Count Down"

2011-10-23T22:55:00.000-07:00

So here I am once again trying to lose pounds after a baby!! Well this time folks it is my THIRD and LAST!! You all heard me right the Duncan's are done having babies :) So with that being said I can really focus on getting myself back in shape, but not just back in shape, in the best shape I can be in!! Now that I am done having kids I can get myself where I want and try to keep it there knowing I don't ever have to be pregnant again aaaahhhhh! I can breath a sigh of relief. Being 28, having three kids, and being done is a good feeling. So with all that being said I am on a weight loss count down.

I can't believe I am going to reveal my weight to you all, but it's a tradition I have revealed after each pregnancy!! So whatever I will just tell you my weight now, and then my target goal. So I am now 125lbs. I was 117 before I got pregnant with Dayton soooooo I am hoping to lose just a couple more pounds below the 117 mark. I would like to be 115lbs. I know that may sound steep to some of you, but I have always been around that weight until I started having babies. I am only barely 5'4" so that weight looks fine on me. I just need to work my butt off to roughly lose 10 pounds. Any suggestions of good weight loss programs would be much appreciated :).........

"I Think So"

2011-09-28T00:15:00.000-07:00

I had to post about the funniest thing Devin said to me!! So the other night driving home I was saying to him "mommy loves you". Then he was saying back "love you too". So after a minute or two of silence I asked him "Do you love mommy"? His reply was "I think so"! Oh my gosh I started laughing so hard and could not believe that was his answer. I didn't teach him that phrase, and how did he know to answer my question that way. All I know is that I wanted to write this down so I didn't forget. It truly is amazing what your kids observe you do even when you think they aren't looking or oh they wont get that!! Well news flash they DO. I have decided that our kids are a product of what we are. So I want to make sure that I can be the best example I possibly can be to my kids! They mean the world to me and they make me want to do such good things :)

"Brotherly Love"

2011-09-20T00:01:00.001-07:00

So this picture melted my heart!! I love seeing my two boys together and knowing what best buddies they will be. Devin and Addison are so adorable together now, and I know they will be the same towards Dayton. I don't care if people think Chris and I are crazy for having 3 kids under 3 years old! I absolutely love it and quite frankly haven't found it to be that hard. Our kids have found a friend for life in eachother by being so close in age. This picture says it all and makes everything we have done worth it. Dev just recently wanted to start holding dayton. He just stares at him and says "Hi brother Dayton" He will pat him and say "shh shh shh" trying to keep him calm. Just goes to show how smart a 2 year old is. He only could have picked that up by simply watching how I am with Dayton. I love these two precious boys!!

"Loving Young Women's"

2011-09-08T00:03:00.000-07:00

So I got a new calling just recently in church! I got called to be a miamaid advisor in young women's. I was really excited to take on this calling. I have a feeling these girls will teach me much more than I will teach them!! That is the great part about getting to work with the youth, they remind you of what it is like to be 14 and 15 again. It really is very eye opening to see what young teenagers face now days. It really scares me to think what things will be like in 12 years from now when my kids will be teenagers. I have my first lesson this sunday and can't wait to teach it!! Things like getting up in front of people doesn't make me nervous or bother me, I just get encouraged by the challenge! Well I will keep you updated on how my first lesson goes until then goodnight :)

"Dev, Addi, and Dayton's Photo Shoot"

2011-09-06T23:58:00.000-07:00

Ok so I totally love how the pictures of all three kids turned out!! That is so weird to say THREE... I have to just say I love being a mom of three it has been such an easy transition. I'm grateful for my little munchkins. A shout out to Jamie Ault that did the pictures for me. She is a great friend and is very talented :) thanks Jamie. ENJOY I will be posting more pictures!!!!....

"I'm Back"

2011-08-25T16:11:00.000-07:00

Well i have said this many times before, but I mean it this time I'M BACK!!! I want to blog on a daily basis even if it is about silly things! I have Dayton's newborn pics, our day up at the homestead, and chris and I's 6 year anniversary COMING SOON :) check it out!!

"Welcoming Baby Dayton"

2011-06-29T13:57:00.000-07:00

Baby Dayton Born June 27th 2011
Weighing 3lbs 5ozs and

17 1/2 inches long

Our newest and sweetest addition arrived Monday at 12:50 pm!! He is in the NICU now at IMC Hospital in Murray. Truly he came out screaming and so far is doing great. He does need assistance with his breathing, by using some pressurized oxygen. Other than that he is hardly hooked to anything and is doing great! I tell you what those small little IUGR babies do the best in the NICU. The nurses seem to tell us that every time. As for me and delivery it has gone really well so far. I do seem to have some extra pain this time along with my incision. I had a tubal ligation done at the time of my c-section, so i did two surgeries in one. I will be posting another post this evening of little Dayton to keep you updated.

" It's Been A Long Time"

2011-06-16T23:13:00.000-07:00

So I know I haven't blogged in over 3 months now and I am soooo sorry!! Our lives have been such chaos around here. I am 32 weeks now and have a really big appointment tomorrow for the baby. We could be having our little dude in the next two weeks possibly :/ I just don't feel quite ready this time. I have so much to catch up on and so much to blog about even from just this last month, let alone the past three. So tomorrow they are doing a growth scan on the baby to see how far behind he is in weight etc... then also what percentile he falls in. I'm going to guess his weigh in at 2lbs 14ozs. It may sound big but that is actually the weight of more like a 28 to 29 weeker CRAZY!! So although this little dude has caused us less grief than our little miss Addi, he is still wanting to come early and be small like his brother and sister :) Please if anyone is interested I will be posting about how the appointment went and what the verdict on everything is dun dun dun. So check all the info.. out tomorrow. I have to get to bed now it is midnight and I have so much anxiety. My appointment is at 7:30 in the morning. So goodnight all and wish me and baby luck :)

"The Dreaded RSV"

2011-03-07T12:14:00.000-08:00

I was hoping to avoid the "RSV" cold in my home. Dumb thought probably with a 1yr old and a 2yr old. Devin has had RSV the past week, and let me tell you for those that there kids haven't had it yet, be glad cuz it is a nasty one. Last Sunday night Chris and I had the kids up to my parents for dinner. Devin just started burning up out of no where and was acting really lathargic, so much that his eyes started to roll back. It was really scary and truthfully I just thought it was a ear infection. He tends to spike really high fevers with those. So Chris and I made the decision to leave addison at my parents and take dev to the instacare to be checked. The reason I jumped at the idea of something being wrong, was because I had Ibuprofen in him and his temp was still 103. He had a cold for about six days but nothing major. He started with a slight cough maybe 2 days prior to sunday. Addi had been so sick the two weeks before I just assumed that he had her cold. Well long story short when we got to instacare we noticed that devin's breathing was really shallow. He was so congested he could hardly breath. It was really scary, and his oxygens were even low. So needless to say the doctor saw him and sure enough he had an ear infection, but on top of it the doctor suspected RSV. So we had to do this horrible suction procedure to get some mucus. They took that to do a rapid test and see if it came back positive for RSV. Mean while chris was an absolute wreck. I have never seen him get so emotional. He had to hold devin down while they did this procedure, and the whole time devin kept screaming for daddy. I haven't seen chris cry over much before, but he did over his little buddy. After it was all said and done the doctor came back with a positive result for RSV :( Let me just say to you all this is nasty nasty stuff and is highly contagious. You do not want your little ones to get this. I'm just terrified now that my little squirt 1 yr old will pop up with it. It would be alot worse if addi got it because she had alot of lung problems when she was born. They told us back in the NICU that because she needed the ventilator to breath for her when she was born, that it may create some problems with her lungs when she is older. So something like RSV would really attack her little lungs, and could possibly hospitalize her. I just hope for the best that she doesn't get it. I have tried to keep the two apart, wash hands, etc.... but it's almost impossible to keep them from eachother 100%. I take Devin today for his follow up appt to see if he still has the RSV in his chest, and find out if he is still contagious. I will give you the update on how it all goes.....

"17 Week Ultrasound"

2011-03-04T11:56:00.000-08:00

This ultrasoundsound was so exciting!! The little man looks awesome, and he is on TARGET! I don't want to ever get to excited, but I have to say it feels good to hear good stuff for once. There was a blood test they did on me to test my placenta about a week ago. It was to see if the placenta was having any problems yet. Well...... it came back negative they said they saw no signs of insufficiencies at this point. I was really excited to hear that, now granted this doesn't mean this pregnancy will go perfect, I'm just looking for better though :) Anyways I put the cutest little profile of the little man on this post, and I promised you all a belly pic for 17 weeks. So look below to see the belly pic of this little peanut. I wont lie I think my belly is already pretty big, but again I don't want to get my hopes up :) Well enjoy.......

"It's A Boy"

2011-03-01T14:30:00.000-08:00

I have been way behind on blogging. So I'm posting the most important things that have happened in the last month. Well It's a boy!! Chris and I are so excited, we feel really lucky to be following the pattern of boy, girl, boy. I think Devin will be so excited to have a little brother to rough house with. Don't kid yourselves though, I think our little Addison will hold her own with these two boys, she is a little firecracker. Well I actually have an ultrasound this thursday, it's the first growth scan on the baby. We are just praying that all the heparin shots are working and he is right on target. So stay tuned for a post on that. I also will be posting my first belly picture with this little man on thursday. Until then look for any new posts in between.

"Addison's Big 1year Party"

2011-03-01T13:40:00.000-08:00

I just cannot even believe that my little princess turned 1 year old on Feb 24th. I feel like it was only yesterday that I was waiting anxiously to deliver her. I will say she was a little pistol to get here, and fought every step of they way. I am so proud of what a beautiful little girl she has already become. She is so full of life and is more energetic than I could imagine. She cruises furniture like you wouldn't believe, stands on her own, and crawls like a wild woman everywhere Devin goes. She we will be walking I predict within a month. She is right where she should be for her age being that she was 2 months early. She is now 28 inches long and drum roll please, a whopping 15lbs 12oz LOL!!! She is the definition of petite :) Anyhow we had a party the 26th for her that was awesome. so enjoy the pics below.

"Chris Turned 30"

2011-03-01T13:07:00.001-08:00

So Chris really wanted to keep his 30th birthday low key, but I had other plans in mind :). So I decided to throw him a suprise party. We had it at the Rock Creek Pizza in Sandy. I had the back room rented out and all of our family came to support the cause. It turned out awesome he was so suprised. How I found time to pull off a suprise party I'm not sure, but I'm glad I did. Devin and Addi had so much fun helping daddy open presents and blow out candles :)

"11 weeks Already"

2011-01-21T22:47:00.000-08:00

So I found this image of what a fetus looks like at 11 weeks. This is my third pregnancy, and yet it still never ceases to amaze me!! I actually am only a few days away from being 12 weeks already. I just wanted to post the week I am still currently in. So far so good with everything. I don't know if you all saw my earlier post, but I am doing heparin injections to myself now twice a day. I can't lie they really arent very pleasant, but hey whatever means getting a bigger full term baby right?! Chris and I are getting excited, but boy are our lives going to change drastically. So far I truly did not get sick this time, which is awesome. I feel great actually, and have to be honest I am leaning towards this being a boy! I feel alot more like Idid when I was prego with Devin. So being that I have had a boy and girl, certain symptoms are all I have to go off of. I could totally be wrong though and they tell me that I am getting another girl :) truly I am lucky to get one of each, so we really don't mind what this one is. I just want more than anything a healthy better pregnancy. With all they are doing with me this time I really feel that it is promising. I don't want to count my eggs before they are hatched, but I really think that this time is going to be different. I know that the lord has blessed us with this new bundle for a reason. I just need to sit back and put my trust in him. The last time I did that he gave me my beautiful little girl safe and sound :) Prayer works, and I know that he heard me when I prayed in the hospital every night to keep buying addison time. He did exactly that and did not let her struggle at all. I am grateful to be pregnant again, and be able to experience all that comes with it, even if mine are a little bumpy. I will soon start posting belly pics, but I don't quite have enough of a belly yet. So look for the first one in a few weeks, until then good night all.

"Our New Years"

2011-01-08T07:44:00.000-08:00

Every year for the past 3 new years now chris and I go to dinner together. Westarted it when I was pregnant with Devin. We wanted to do our own thing because we knew the day were coming where we would have babies every new year :). Which don't get me wrong was just fine, but we still like our alone time too. So we left the kids with chris's parents this year and went to dinner at Iggy's, I had really been craving their bread and dip mmmm. Then we went and just hung together did a little shopping etc..... and went back to spend some time with family for the new year. I know were boring but we don't care, I have loved having the tradition of spending time together alone. Holidays are for family time, atleast that is always how it's worked with chris and I. So there is no place or people I would rather be with than my family. Well all to a happy new year, and enjoy the pics below......

"Duncan Christmas"

2011-01-04T21:51:00.000-08:00

It was so awesome this year at the Duncan house for christmas!! We had double the fun this year with our two little munchkins. We got some really cute photos of christmas morning. Oh and don't worry our kids got 3 full christmas's each. Chris and I of course spoiled them, then it's off to my parents to be spoiled again, and last but not least the other grandparents to finish off the day of spoiling. I'm not kidding our kids had to of gotten 30-40+ things each. I'm talking brand new wardrobes for both of them literally, toys toys toys, dancing mickey the biggest craze right now, and some more clothes toys and toys again. It was awesome!! Chris and I didn't make out so bad ourselves either :) Well I think I summed up how great and giving our families are, but now let me show you in pictures!!! ENJOY.................

"Bring on the Shot"

2011-01-03T22:03:00.000-08:00

So I got word today from the team of specialists that Chris and I now have for baby #3. I had to do some blood tests last week at my first appointment. They were testing for certain antibodies in my blood that may be a contributor to what causes growth restriction in my babies. It also is a contributor to placental insuffieciency, which is why may babies are small. So with knowing all of that, my test came back as moderate positives. Anytime you even have a slight positive in this case they see it as an objective, and they will treat it immediately. Well the only way to treat this and hopefully prevent a small baby this time is taking heparin shots. It is a low weight blood thinner that I have to inject into my stomach twice a day for basically the whole pregnancy. i'm not excited about it, but I am grateful that they may have found a breakthrough that will give me a shot at a normal pregnancy this time. So here's to getting shots twice a day everyday woo hoo............ wish me luck!!

"Diaper Disaster Twice"

2011-01-02T15:11:00.000-08:00

So my poor little devin has a double ear infection :( I took him to the doctor on thursday. The doctor told me that his right ear was so full of fluids he couldn't even see inside it. In other words that meant he had a mean ear infection. The left ear was conjested, but it wasn't near as bad. Anyhow they of course put him on antibiotics and ear drops, but anibiotics can cause diarreah bad in babies or toddlers. Well with that being said my little man has been having some pretty outrageous blowouts the past two mornings. Thank goodness it was the weekend and I had Chris's help, because it was nasty. I went to go into his room both mornings and I just saw poop all over his sheets, hands, face, on stuffed animals Yikes!! I immediately called for chris to come in and help. It was so bad we had to wipe him down so much before we could even remove his pajamas. Once we got all of that done it was straight to the bathtub! There was no messing around with this disaster. I'm just hoping this isn't an every morning thing while he is taking the antibiotic, cuz I can't do it by myself in the morning. This was definitely a two man job. Thanks daddy for coming to the rescue, and doing all the cleanup :)

Salad @ 9:00am

2010-12-22T08:28:00.000-08:00

Well I guess I am biting my tongue now by saying that I haven't been to sick! Not so true :)although I will say it is alot more managable than my last pregnancy. That tells me this little bean could be a boy. For me I was way more sick with Addison than with Devin. So I'm kind of going off that for now, but who really knows. Anyhow I titled this post post salad at 9:00am, because I really ate salad this morning at 9:00am. Your body gets so messed up in the first stages of pregnancy. I mean seriously for as queezy as you feel who wants a cold salad at 9 in the morning. As long as I'm not throwing up and can still be active, then I will take what I have going on. I guess we can chalk this up to the first weird craving so far :) Oh and it's not just any salad, it's Rock Creeks Pizza's salad bar. So until next time I hope you all are enjoying the blog......

2010-12-15T16:32:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! FROM THE DUNCAN'S........

We had this cute picure done of the babies for christmas. I think it turned out so cute. We hope you all have happy holidays! :)

Baby Dunc #3 Is Coming Soon........

2010-12-15T12:28:00.000-08:00

Okay so in case you haven't noticed the newest name to the blog :) with the 3 babies, well it's true baby #3 is on the way. Little baby Dunc decided they wanted to be a part of our family when they felt like it. So Chris and I ofcourse were pleasantly suprised on Dec. 4th to find out that we are PREGNANT! People may think we are totally insane, but we are super excited,besides this was not planned at all. We may end up having 3 kiddos under 3, but we will be done and finished! I figure in two years from now when everyone else is still trying to get babies here we will have all kids, and be past the hard part for everything. So truthfully I am grateful for what we have been given, I truly couldn't ask for a better Christmas gift :) So baby Dunc will be here August 18th. I know I know what you are all thinking....... We don't go to our due date, but the docs already have me on meds and protein treatments to prevent the growth restriction this time (They aren't messing around). So fingers crossed we can hopefully get to 37 weeks this time with a bigger baby.

"Prayers For Ponka"

2010-10-01T20:20:00.000-07:00

If you are all wondering who Ponka is it's my (grandpa). My family has always called him ponka instead! The oldest grandkids never could say grandpa, but they kept saying ponka. So now that you all know who I'm talking about, I will give the short story. My ponka is suffering from lung cancer . It has finally caught up to him, and he is now fighting it from home. The hospice has been coming out to his home, nurses daily etc..... They have evaluated him recently, and they have come to the conclusion of him having a week or two to live. Now I know we all have grandpa's and are all generally pretty close to them. In this case I see my ponka literally as a second dad. I have lived a mile from him my whole life, and as the yougest grandchild he has treated me like a princess. He is the kindest sweetest man, and has never deprived me of anything! Now when he is in need of my help I feel helpless. The one time he actually is unable to things for himself ,and so sick, I can't take this pain away! After all he has done for me my whole life, and still at 27 he spoils me, I wish there was something I coud do for him right now. I realized at this point all we can give is prayers to help comfort him, and to ease his pain. I had a blessing arranged for him last night, and my ponka is not LDS, but he told me after that he really appreciated me doing that, and he got teary eyed telling me. I realized that I had done the right thing for him and my whole family. There wasn't a dry eye in the room, and there really was a sense of calmness. None of my family in fact is LDS, but they all thanked me and told me they were glad that I did it. I really felt good about doing that for my ponka, it was the least I could do to offer some comfort. So please I ask all of you to say a prayer for ponka, ask for some comfort for him. and for him to not be afraid to pass away!! I have such a special place in my heart for my ponka, and really don't know what I will do without him. I love you ponka!! Love carebear

"My New Calling"

2010-09-18T16:06:00.000-07:00

So after living in my ward for over 2 years now I finally got a calling!! I was asked to be a sunday school teacher for the youth. They are 14 and 15 year old boys and girls. I will have 6 students, and my first lesson is tomorrow. I am really excited to learn and study the lessons every week. I feel I have really been given an important calling, and I want to take it very serious! I want to dive head first into all that I am going to be teaching, and make sure that I am living my life in the gospel. I have alot of challenges around me all of the time. I have diversity around me all of the time, but to me that is a good thing. It will just make me stronger to be able to stand up for myself and do things the way I feel is right. I am just so happy I can get such a good age group to teach. 15 years old is such an age that is sensitive and that I can share my experiences with, and have an impact on. The lesson I'm starting with this week is on "prophets". I myself don't know alot about all of the lesson subjects, but I know one thing I feel what I'm teaching is correct. So now all I have to do is dig in and do alot of studying, so that I can pass the message to all of my students. That sounds so weird to say, I can't believe I'm a teacher now. Well I just wanted to write a short message about the newest and latest. I will let you know how the first class goes.

"Devin's Playdate"

2010-09-14T23:33:00.000-07:00

Ok so Dev's little buddy linkoln is such a cutie! They are only 6 months apart and really starting ineract with eachother. They both couldn't get enough of pushing the chair around on the wood floor. I had to get some pictures it was to funny! Addi wanted to play with the boys, but she still just a little to young. Addison is only 6 months younger than link. Does that tell you how close my kids really are yikes!! Anyhow I have some cute pics so enjoy! Thanks for coming to play with us Linkoln!

"Bear Lake"

2010-09-14T14:49:00.000-07:00

We went to bear lake over Labor Day! It was alot of fun to go with 2 babies this year. Just 2 years ago Chris and I were going to bear lake ALONE. Now we have an 18 month old and a 7 month old (It's Nuts). Devin was such a blast this year. He loved playing on the beach, splashing in the water, but most of all eating the sand :) Addison was a little dolly on the beach. She just soaked up some rays in her cute pink chair. She wasn't as active as Devin yet, but she still really enjoyed bear lake. Enjoy some pictures below of all of us at bear lake!

"Our Saturday Beach Party"

2010-08-15T22:15:00.000-07:00

Well Chris had left Friday night for Flaming Gorge, so Saturday I had a fun idea in mind for me and the babies! I had heard on the radio about a beach party at Gardner Village. It sounded so fun for dev and Addi. You had to dress hawaiin style ofcourse. I'm a sucker for theme parties, so we got all dressed up :) I got flower lays for all three of us, sun glasses etc.... and we headed out to Gardner Village. I met my mom, dad, and sister there to enjoy the festivities. We ate teriyaki bowls, smoothies with little umbrellas, and just did everything hawaiin style!! We got some really cute pictures so enjoy them below.........

Friday night SUSHI"

2010-08-14T21:28:00.000-07:00

Okay so I just have to start by saying that I ate this YIKES! It was steamed mussles with a lemon sauce. Anyhow I don't usually branch out, but my sister and her boyfriend got Chris and I to eat things we had never tried. It was actually really really good! We only had so much time go do something with our Friday night, so we chose a sushi dinner (without kids) :) My crazy husband was leaving the same night for Flaming Gorge. So we decided to do something together before he left. Just an FYI temura shrimp rolls are delicious yum yum! We went and ate at a place downtown called Takashi. I would recommend that you try it, if you like sushi that is!! I have really learned to love sushi, thanks to my husband. I wasn't sure about it, but he took me to simply sushi, and I loved it!! Well I'm off to bed hope you all have a great weekend!

"Our Fun Filled Friday"

2010-08-14T12:10:00.000-07:00

So Friday Chris got off work around noon. So we decided to take the babies over to the "County Fair". It was alot of fun to just spend quality time together. Chris is such a cute daddy with our little cutie pies :) There was a petting zoo, a carousel ride, snow cones, and eating of course. We got some really cute pics of Devin with daddy in the petting zoo. I also took Dev on the carousel ride, he wasn't to sure about it. As for little Addison she slept the whole time. Next year she will be able to enjoy all of these things that big brother is doing this summer. She is still trying to catch up in weight, so she takes lots of little naps during the day. They say that is when they grow the most, and it keeps her from being fussy when were out too :) It was alot of fun hanging with my cute little family, like usual. Now that chris and I have kids we try to find all the local fun things going on. I just want to take my babies every where, and spend as much time with them any chance we get. So I always look forward to our weekends, because we just like to spend time together. Enjoy all the pics below........

"Tuesday Concert Night Out"

2010-08-14T10:50:00.000-07:00

Well I got tickets to this concert through my sister and her boyfriend! They were so nice to invite my mom and I along. Chris was a great hubby as usual, and took on our two little monsters, so I could go out for the evening. This is my sister and her boyfriend below.......This concert was outside for Chris Isaac at Red Butte Gardens! It is sooo pretty there, and I had never been to a concert there, so I really enjoyed. We had this "Random" as I liked to call him, jump into our picture. My sister and I were getting our picture taken when this guy walked by. He asked "Can I be in the picture"? We said sure why not, so that is how we got this funny picture.....

I Really enjoyed getting out, and going to the concert with you all!! I love summer. It seems like Chris and I have something daily between all each of our families. It is all fun stuff though, and I love getting out all the time :)

"Family Cleaning Night"

2010-08-13T22:25:00.000-07:00

So atleast a couple times a year my whole family get to together, and we help clean my grandparents house! We try to help them out, things are just getting a little harder for them to do. My grandpa (ponka) was diagnosed with lung cancer last October. So ever since that we have all tried to pull together and help anyway we can. I of course had my best little helper there cleaning with me. My little Devin is so proud of standing on his own, taking steps, and so on. So I got the cutest picture of him hold the duster, and giving me his famous goofy grin.......I know I am very bias, but he is sooooo dang cute!!! I also captured some other photos of everyone cleaning. It was really nice to go help the family out, and hang with all of my relatives while doing it. It what life should be all about is FAMILY. I have learned in the past few years that they are the only true consistent thing in my life. I am so grateful for all of them. Please enjoy the pics below.

"My Little Lizard"

2010-08-12T13:22:00.000-07:00

I had just had to post a quick picture of Addison! Her latest thing is to stick her tongue out constantly. I got the best picture a while back, and wanted to finally post it. Then just 5 days ago we were at Rock creek for dinner, and she stuck her tongue out so far. Her new nickname is Gene Simmons for those that don't know, it's the guy from KISS with the long long tongue! I guess i just never really payed attention to how long her tongue really is lol.. Enjoy these photos.....

"5 Year Anniversary"

2010-08-11T22:09:00.000-07:00

Chris and Cari

Married August 11th

2005

So it has been 5 years of marriage for Chris and I!! I cannot believe how fast the time goes. I just have to say how much I love my husband, and thank him for being the most supportive loving man I know. I think it is rare to find someone that loves you truly unconditionally. He has made me feel like the luckiest girl int he world! I kow it may sound cheesy, but he is my lobster :) I could not ask for a better best friend in life. I share so much with him, including our two beautiful babies. Devin and Addison have just brightened our lives so much. I still remember just standing at the alter on our wedding day, and all eyes were on us. It feels just like yesterday that we were saying " I Do". This year we decided to give ourselves a well deserved trip together ALONE. We headed to San Francisco on July 31st for 4 days. It was the most fun I have had with my hubby in quite a while. I will post pics of the trip don't worry. I just have been trying to catch myself up on the blog, so I'm sorry about that. As for our actual anniversary day, we had a great time. We went to Red Lobster for dinner, then headed home to babies sound asleep in bed ahhhh. My parents of course came to the rescue, and let us have a night out. After babies were in bed and we had a minute to ourselves, we had a toast together, with our wedding glasses.

Needless to say we had an awesome anniversary!! We kept it simple, but fun. I have learned in the past year and a half to really appreciate the simple things. Sometimes those are the greatest memories. Thank you so much sweetie for a fun night out, and making me feel like your lady. You always know how to make me feel very special. I LOVE YOU!!!! Happy Anniversary!

2010-08-08T22:30:00.000-07:00

Well I can’t believe that I am 27 years old!! I feel like I am getting soooo old. I know I know some of you would say that sounds ridiculous. I met Chris when I was 18 years old, then we were married when I was 22. Now I have a husband, my cute home, and 2 kids!! I have to say getting older is actually pretty awesome. If I would have known all these wonderful things came along with it, I would have pushed to grow up quicker. So for my birthday I am of course super spoiled, like usual. I basically got 4 days in a row of birthday fun. It started on Sunday and didn’t end until Thursday. Sunday I went to the park with all of my family, I mean extended and all. You see me and my grandpa share our birthday’s together(there is a picture of us above), we have all of my life. So this year he turned 84 years old, and he is fighting lung cancer. I know that he probably will not be around for our birthday’s to come. I hope and pray that he is, but it just is hard to say, I really enjoyed this birthday with him. As for Monday night we went to Chris’s softball game then ate some dinner. Tuesday I went to lunch with my mom and sister at good old rock creek, and then Weds. was my real birthday. That night Chris’s family took me to Olive Garden for dinner, then baskin robbins for ice cream after. I am so spoiled with gifts every year, my babies spoiled me too this year!! I have a cute husband that of course gives 3 gifts for my birthday now, because Devin and Addison give me each a gift too lol. So between everyone I got over $200 dollars cash, Green Science crème (by Aveda it is the best face product ever), then I got clothes, jewelry, boots, lunches, dinners, gift cards. I mean really you name it I definitely got it!! I almost feel guilty how much I get given constantly really. I feel like Chris and I are given so much all the time, sometimes for just no reason at all. I feel so lucky to have what I have, and would say this has been the best birthday in 27 years!! I have the best things in life that you could ask for: love, happiness, faith, children, a loving husband, a home, and family. What honestly is better than all of that I ask!? Well I have rambled long enough, so please enjoy the pictures below from my 4 day birthday adventure :)…………….. Oh and by the way as if I am not spoiled enough I got to go to San Francisco on July 31st for Chris and I’s 5 year anniversary woo hoo!!! Watch for that post next.

"Devin 15 Months"

2010-06-28T22:35:00.001-07:00

So our little man is 15 months old!! I cannot believe how time has flown by. I swear it seems like I was just doing a post for him at 4 months. All I know is that Dev is a handful, but he is such a goof! You can tell by this crooked smile that he can be pretty silly. So to name a few things that Devin is doing now:

1.) Saying all of his vowel sounds (It's so funny!)

2.) Pointing at everything saying "Dat"? Like he's asking what's that.

3.) He loves to scratch any chance he gets. :)

4.) He snaps his fingers (no joke) and he does it really well!

5.) Almost walking on his own! We have late bloomers, but with early starts :).

6.) Says "uhOh" it is so adorable.

7.) He can actually say "Addi" pretty clearly now!

These are just to name a very few! All I know is that he has been soooo much fun to watch grow and learn. I can't wait to see what the next month has to bring until then.....

"Can't Forget Father's Day"

2010-06-24T23:14:00.001-07:00

Dear Chris,

I don't even know where to begin on telling you what a wonderful father you really are!! I always knew that you were going to be a great daddy, but you really blew me away. It started with one, and then there came two :) It was then that I realized I was the luckiest girl around. The way that you interact with Devin just melts my heart. Now with Addison here you melt it even more. There is just something about a daddy and their little girl. Not to mention what an amazing husband you are, aside from being a great daddy.

I truly feel so grateful to have you in my life, and to call myself your wife. You have been there for me no matter what, through thick and thin. You have always loved me unconditonally, not many people can say that about their spouse, but I can. I feel we have been given a load in just a years time. We have achieved getting two babies here, and not to mention that they were preemies. We have been on an emotional rollercoaster for quite sometime, and I just wouldn't want to be on this ride with anyone else. I love you so much, and don't think I tell you enough. I appreciate all that you do to allow me to stay home with our children. You truly are a great man! Devin and Addison are going to realize soon enough just how lucky they are! I know this already, because you and I am so lucky to have you :)

I love that at night when the babies go to bed we just sit and talk, laugh, and just snuggle with eachother. I love that you send sweet messages through out the day telling me what an amazing mom I am. You always know how to brighten my day, and I truly would be lost without you. I love you sweetie! I could go on and on about how wonderful you are. I will just wrap up by telling you that you are the BEST in my book. Definitely the best daddy around, and an outstanding husband! I hope that you had a great Father's Day. We all sure loved spending it with you :)

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY LOVE!!!!

"My Little Addi Is 4 Months"

2010-06-24T23:01:00.000-07:00

Ok so you can't tell me this isn't the cutest smile EVER?!! I don't know how I caught the perfect moment and captured this, but I did. Addison has yet to have her four month check up. We will be seeing the doctor on June 29th. So judging from my scales she is over 10lbs now woo hoo!! I know that sounds insane for a 4 month old, but when you start at 2 1/2 we have to cut her some slack right?! :) So just to name a few adorable things that she is doing now.......

1.) Smiles all over the place!

2.) Reaches for hanging toys!

3.) Can grab, and hold onto certain objects!

4.) Bares full weight on her legs, and stands like a champ!

5.) Holds her own little head up perfect!

6.) Can sit up with just a little something behind her!

7.) Loves belly time, and can lift head atleast 45 degrees!

8.) She coos and talks (It's sooo adorable)

9.) Almost out of her acid reflux stage (THANK GOODNESS)

10.) Last but not least, she sleeps atleast 6 hours straight sometimes 7 (yesssss) Not bad considering I was getting up 4-5 times a night with her. Preemies are VERY high maintenance!!

So that is my little sweet pea in a nut shell right now!! I love my little princess, and can't wait to see what month 5 brings!!!

"Our Family Date Night"

2010-06-23T22:16:00.001-07:00

So this wasn't Chris and I's typical date night. We were going to just go alone, but since it was a Father's Day dinner, we decided to all go as a family :) It was a cute little thai place downtown called "Chanon Thai". Ok so I don't usually even like thai, but I have to say this place was pretty good. I would go back for sure. Chris is always begging me to go because he is a thai fanatic. So our little Devin tried some thai for the first time, and he actually really liked it. It is so funny to watch your kids try new foods. You either get a really sour face, or a smile, that's how we know Dev likes new stuff. He is such a funny little dude. I just love watching him discover everything new. Even our little Addi is really alert now, and just absorbing everything around her, then she bursts out with a huge smile. I can't get enough of seeing my babies learn all the time.

After we enjoyed our meal at this cute little place, we decided we needed a treat. So on the way home we picked up some sonic shakes ofcourse :) Dev was so tired, I think we wore him out on his first date night!

Since it was such a pretty night, we had our shakes out in the front yard on a blanket. Sometimes it is the simple moments that I truly enjoy with my little family. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else, but spending every minute I can with them. So it to chalk up our date night with babies, it actually went pretty well. I think we still may stay to just Chris and I though most of the time :)We have really enjoyed getting to go out with eachother one day a week. Chris even said he really looks forward to it, and he loves spending time with me. That really means alot to me, I truly do have a sweet husband. Well enjoy the rest of the pictures below......

"Our Weekend Visitor"

2010-06-23T22:09:00.000-07:00

This weekend Chris and I had close friend of ours come in town!! Steph came to see her dad over Father's Day weekend, but on Friday decided to stop and pay us a visit! Steph lives out in Portland Oregon. She hadn't met Addi yet, and it had been quite a few months since she saw Devin last. Steph has been a really great friend over the past few years, and very supportive when I have needed it. Even from afar she manages to be such a great friend! Steph thank you for the visit we really enjoyed you, and little Addison loved her gift. In fact she has already worn it :) I hope to see you soon again when you are back in July! Thank you again for being such a great friend, and we miss you out here!!!

"Our Thursday Night"

2010-06-18T21:43:00.000-07:00

Chris and I decided that we needed a break, so we took the babies up to his parents for the evening. It's really a win win with our situation. We get to visit, relax, and hang out, but grandma and grandpa take care of the babies :) We went and had some pizza! We sat outside to eat, because it was such a pretty night. Papa fed Devin his ravioli.... Yum! You can tell by this picture that he was enjoying it...

Well while Dev was eating Chris was keeping little Addi comfortable! I just love this picture. There is something about a daddy and their daughter. I truly love watching Chris with Addi. He is just so good with her. She isn't the easiest baby, and he is so patient and loving with her. It just makes me love my cute hubby even more :)
We just sat around relaxed and enjoyed the evening mostly. I wanted to get some cute pictures of the babies, so I played around with the camera, and this is what I came up with.... These pictures seriously turned out soooo cute!

So after enjoying the evening at grandma and grandpa's house, we had to end the night off good! So mommy decided that she wanted some frozen yogurt :) So Chris and I took the babies for some yogurt at "Yogurt Stop". It is sooo yummy. If you haven't had it you need to try it. These are some pics of us at the yogurt stop before heading home enjoy......

"NICU comparison"

2010-06-18T15:29:00.000-07:00

I thought it would be fun to show pictures of Devin and Addison when they were the same ages in the NICU. They were both 6 days old in these pictures. I wanted to see if you all think that they look alike. Personally when I look at the 2 pictures I can't tell, and they are my babies. If it weren't for the different color hats I don't think I would know who is who. Let's see what you all think........

This is devin

This is Addison

"Monday At The Carnival"

2010-06-15T23:24:00.000-07:00

So in case you didn't notice I color coordinated my kids to me :) I thought it would be cute if we all matched when we went to the carnival. Chris's sister Jessica is a school teacher, and her school did a cute carnival on Monday night. I figured Dev was to young to do alot, but I knew he would sure love a snow cone. I mean he can't be my child if he doesn't enjoy a yummy snow cone on a hot day right?! :) So my nice little mother-in-law helped me pack up the babies, and we headed over to Jess's school. Chris was still in Texas, so thank goodness for all of his mom's help.

It was really fun as usual to go hang with the family and get me out of the house for a while. Enjoy some pics below of our fun evening out!!!

Addison didn't want to be left out without a snow cone!!! See we offered her a few options :) she is such a doll...... I know I know everyone thinks that about their own babies, but mine really are hehe!

Hanging with Grandma Char :)

"Addison's Blessing Day"

2010-06-14T14:39:00.000-07:00

To Our Precious Bundle,

Addison mommy and daddy can't even describe to you just how special you really are!! We see you as a definite gift from above. You were due to be born at 28 to 29 weeks, and were a good candidate for severe health problems. It was once that I was in the hospital on bedrest and decided to say a quiet prayer. I asked Heavenly Father to please to make this experience hard on me and not on you. I asked that if he were going to have you come that early, that he make you not struggle. I told him to please put all difficulties on me, whether it be my surgery, or getting you here, etc...... I just prayed so hard that you could stay in a little longer and be healthy. Sure enough the lord answered my prayers. Even though I was devestated that I had to be in the hospital so long, it bought you so much more time to develop. Let me just tell you little Addi it was the most difficult thing mommy had done so far. I know now that my prayer was answered, because the lord did exactly what I asked, he put all the difficulty on me, and DID NOT make you struggle. He took care of you and made sure that you came developed enough and healthy. This is why my little precious that mommy and daddy had you blessed in this gospel, because we know that Heavenly Father had a large hand in bringing you to us, and we are forever grateful. We love you and are already so proud of what a beautiful little lady you are. I know brother doesn't pay to much attention to you yet, be he loves you so much, and can't wait until you are little bigger to play with. You two will be the best of friends. We love you are little princess, and pray and hope that you are truly BLESSED through out your life!!

Love,

Mommy, Daddy, and Devin :)

"Condo Day 3"

2010-06-14T10:22:00.001-07:00

This day we had more pool time, and also went into St. George for the day! My dad AKA "The Manny" watched the babies, so that me, my mom, and my sister could go to lunch and shop for the day!! Thank goodness for my cute daddy. I don't know what I would do without him and my mom always helping with the babies. Then ofcourse you have chris's parents that help just as much, so between both chris and I still have quite a bit of freedom. Take a look below of the manny in action burping little addison.....We went to the outlet stores for some shopping, and my mom found herself some awesome sunglasses!! They made her look like a fly, it was to funny so I had to get a picture.....Once we got back to the condo from St. George it was time for some more pool time.

Addi just decided to stay in the shade and lounge!! :)

After our fun filled day of lunch, shopping, and ofcourse the pool AGAIN! We decided to get ready for the evening and go to dinner at cute little mexican restaurant. Below is just alot of fun pictures before we left for dinner, so enjoy............

"Condo Day 2"

2010-06-12T22:09:00.000-07:00

So on day 2 ofcourse it was off to the pool! Now Devin hadn't really been in a pool yet. I mean we put him in last summer, and he hated it by the way. He was just so young that he doesn't remember. So this year being that he is almost 15 months old, we figured it would be way more fun. It really was the getting ready for the pool that was the funnest. Check out Dev below in little swimmer diapers, and little Addison in her stylish pool attire..... So dang cute, but hey I'm bias to them :)

So after all the chaos of getting ready for the pool, it was actually off to the pool :) Devin didn't love the pool at first. I think it was just the initial getting in, you know how cold that can be. So grandpa and mommy had to gently get Devin used to the water....

Once he got used to the water we couldn't get him out. He was totally loving being in the pool. I was so glad, because I didn't want him to be afraid of water at all. Well judging by the pictures below he wasn't (enjoy).......

So after all of the fun in the pool, Devin decided he wanted to bask in the sun with grandpa..... This is such a priceless picture :)

"The Condo Day 1"

2010-06-12T21:56:00.000-07:00

Well when daddy is away we will play :) The babies and mama decided to take a trip to grandma and grandpa's condo in Mesquite. We wanted to do alot of playing in the pool, shopping, eating yummy food, and just relaxing. Ok so maybe we are kind of boring, but it sure felt good to be boring. So I just thought I would break this trip up into the 3 days that we were gone. We are actually still at the condo until tomorrow. So now that grandma and grandpa got the babies down I can take a minute to blog :)

On the first day it took us 6 hours to actually get to the condo. That was accounting for the 3 stops we had to make for the babies. My mom, dad, me, babies, and my sister all went down together. I have really enjoyed hanging with my family. When we arrived at the condo we just grabbed ourselves a quick bite to eat at good old KFC, then bathed babies and went to bed basically. See the picture below, it was so adorable of both babies in their towels after a bath....

So that pretty much wraps up our first boring day :) See day 2 for a much more exciting time......

"Before and After"

2010-06-03T22:22:00.000-07:00

Well I chopped my hair off, and know not because I'm a mom now!!! that is usually why everyone does it. In my case I have actually always had shorter hair, I just grew it out because I was basically pregnant for 2 years straight :) So below I have put a before and after picture of my hair. Let me know what you think of the ne hairdo, I know I like it!!

"My Ward Baby Shower"

2010-06-03T10:06:00.000-07:00

So I just have to start by saying WOW Addison and I are so spoiled!!!

So not only did they throw little Addi a baby shower, they also threw one for little Body :) Body and his mommy Amanda live 5 houses down from me. That is Amanda above that I shared the shower with. I have just loved getting to know her as my neighbor! Her little baby is so adorable, he is also Addison's future husband lol!! Amanda and I have teased, because they both have reflux, and are a little naughty :) I just truly cannot believe the kindness for my ward and neighborhood! I feel so lucky to have been given this shower, and feel so dang spoiled at the same time. Addison ended up getting like 20 gifts plus, that's what happens when you have a princess on your hands. The gifts were full of toys, adorable dresses, pj's, you name it she got it!! As for the food that cheryl Garn had prepared it was so delicious. We had veggies, fruits, chocolates, cookies, mmmm cream puffs, cheese and crackers, juices, waters. I mean honestly it was so awesome. The picture of the food table is above!! I just can't believe how generous people are. For all of you reading this thank you sooooo much for putting a shower together, not only did little Addison get spoiled, but I got to know even more amazing women from the ward!! I appreciate all of your love, support, visits to the hospital, dinners etc..... I truly don't feel I can thank you enough. Enjoy some pics below of Amanda, me, and the babies :)

"Finished Projects"

2010-05-31T22:44:00.000-07:00

Ok so in the last post I talked about our home depot run over the weekend! Well it was to refinish the table in our kitchen, and also get the yard ready for Addison's blessing this sunday. So below are lovely photos of me painting my kitchen table, along with the finished product.....

That was the first big project out of the way!! Although the larger project for the weekend was our yard. Let me just tell you we worked our butts off. When I say we I mainly mean chris and his mom. I did yard work the first day, and might I say I was proud of what I did :) I'm not usually one for yard work, but it was really fun to plant my own flowers. Like I was saying chris and his mom did most of the work. I am so grateful for chris and I's families. I'm sure you hear me say that alot, but it really is true! Chris's dad, mom, sister, and her fiance all came to help chris and I, so that we could get done what we wanted to do. I mean it was their memorial day too, but instead they were helping us!! As for Chris you truly are such a hard worker, and you made our yard look beautiful! Thank you babe for all the hard work, I just love our little home. There is nothing like adding your own touches to your house to make it your own. Chris and I did alot of that this weekend. So now that you have heard of all the hard work, I have posted the finished product below.....

"FAMILY DAY!!"

2010-05-30T23:46:00.000-07:00

Ok so Chris and I decided to have a really fun family day over the Memorial weekend! We wanted to take Devin somewhere fun now that he is getting old enough to know what things are. So we went to the aquarium in Sandy. Let me just tell you Devin could have cared less about any of it lol. My little man cared more about all of the little kids running around, he didn't hardly even notice the aquatic life :) He has formed quite the personality I must say! Dev just sees little kids and starts giggling up a storm. I don't know what it is, but he loves the little munchkins running all over the place. Aside from the people watching he did enjoy a few things there like the sting rays, snake, salt water aquarium, and the cool frog you can sit on.......

Maybe next year Addi will enjoy the aquarium a little more than what this picture shows :) she sure looks cute though......

After TGI Fridays's for lunch and the aquarium, we decided to go to the mall!! Mommy and Addison's favorite place. I don't know how excited daddy and dev were about it, but we had fun! There was actually a purpose behind making a mall run. We had to find our princess a very princess appropriate dress for her blessing next week! I will post some preview pics of it in a day or two. It is so beautiful! It is pure white, and as puffy and lacy as a dress can be!! Her white headband and bow are to die for! Did I mention how much fun it is having a girl :) There is just something about shopping for her. So then last but not least we ran one more errand to prep for this blessing next week! We went to the Home Depot ofcourse. We found all of our flowers, bushes, and indoor accesories to do our home projects!! So then we finished off with a nice hard day of yard work, and ofcourse we had our best helpers in the yard with us :)

So this is how we spent our Memorial day weekend!! We spent it as a family, just the way I like it. I love my husband and babies so much! I really cherish all the little moments I have with them. Also to my hubby that let me plan out this whole family day. It was cute he just kept saying the same thing anytime I would ask him something: "Whatever mama wants to do, it's her day!!" It just put a smile on my face to have such a good husband that thinks of me, and sometimes just wants to do whatever I want to do :) thanks babe for making my family day so fun, and just spending time together!!

"Addison Is Smiling"

2010-05-30T23:39:00.000-07:00

So this is the only smile (half smile) that I could capture recently!! She literally is doing open mouth smiles now, it is adorable! It is so what you wait for, all of that fun interaction. My little angel is doing so well, and is just thriving!! I could not ask for a more healthy perfect baby. I will soon try to post a really good full on smile, until then enjoy the pic :)

"My Little Rugrats"

2010-05-20T08:24:00.000-07:00

We were in on a cool day like usual! I can't wait for summer to get here, and go to the pool, zoo, walks etc..... It will be so nice to get the littlerugrats out! Devin absolutely loves outside and being in the stroller. This summer will be so fun with him at the pool :) he totally loves water, he goes nuts in the bathtub. As for my precious little Addison she will just have to dip her little toesies in, and look good in her little swimsuit! I have to say they have the cutest little girly swimsuits, ofcourse they always have cute stuff for girls. Well I just wanted to post these cute recent pictures of the babies enjoy :)......

"How I spent Mother's Day"

2010-05-10T18:27:00.000-07:00

Let's just start by saying that my mother's day was spent right where I wanted to be, with my cute babies and husband! Chris is so sweet he gave me the nicest card, and then also agift from him, Devin, and Addison. It was so fulfilling to see 3 people that morning, 2 of which are our newest additions. I feel so lucky to get to celebrate mother's day with these two cuties :

I got so many gifts between chris, my family, and his family! I feel awfully spoiled, but I guess your allowed to be on mother's day :) So I just wanted to take a minute to tell Devin and Addison how much I love them.

Dev and Addi you both are my world. Words cannot express how excited I was each time I found I was pregnant with each of you. You both have been such a gift, and I can't describe just how happy having you both has made me. Daddy and I liked just hanging with eachother before either of you were here, but we love hanging with both of you now so much MORE!! Feeling both of you kick for the first time in my belly was the most amazing feeling ever! I loved you both so long before I ever even met you. You also both wanted to enter into this world with a grand entrance! In fact you both were so anxious get here, that you both came 7 weeks early. You had mommy and daddy very nervous both times, but proved us wrong by being such fighters. The NICU was no match for you, and you blew all the nurses away each time. Daddy and I are so blessed to have such special people in our lives, we have already learned so much from you. We are aware of really just how bad your deliveries and entrance into this world could have been ,but heavenly father made sure you were safe and healthy. That is something that makes you both so special. You have already had such a big challenge in life, and you both fought through it. Thank you both so much for coming into my life and changing it forever. I love you both more than I could ever tell you in words! Thank you for making it possible for me to truly learn such a love that is only for a child.

Love,

Mommy :)

Please enjoy the rest of the pictures from my mother's day!

"My Little Strawberry Shortcake"

2010-05-07T09:24:00.001-07:00

I had to take this! I love how little Addi's flowers and bows are bigger than her. Thankfully chris's cousin Mckel made me some smalle flowers and headbands. This is my little strawberry shortcake. Mommy love you Addison :)

2010-05-06T14:25:00.000-07:00

So I found this new chrisitian blog that I just love! I am of the LDS faith, but it doesn't matter to me :) christian is christian. This lady has such great posts, and is very spiritual. I need some of that daily to get me up and going! So thankful thursday is one of her posts for every thursday, and today was on be thankful for mother's, since mother's day is coming up Sunday. So please enjoy the post.

Thankful Thursday: Mothers

This week, since Sunday is Mother's Day, I would like for us to share with each other why we are thankful for our Mothers. Some may have a mom who is their best friend. Some may have a mom in Heaven. Some of us may have never had the chance to meet our moms or haven't seen our moms since we were young. Some of us have more than one mom due to divorce. And some of us may be blessed with women who raised us that were not our biological mothers but "moms" nonetheless.

I am grateful for my mom, because she goes above and beyond the call of duty!! She is constantly taking care of me, and doing things for my 2 babies all the time! Devin and Addison are so lucky to have her as a grandma, mom I love you and thank you so much for being my mom , and giving me life :) I was not raised LDS or of any religion for that matter. I am so thankful that my mom no matter what kept prayer in our home, and taught us who heavenly father and christ were. She wanted to offer that to us no matter what, so that we could choose from there if we wanted them both in our lives. I chose to have them in my life when I was baptized to the LDS church.

I want to hear "why are you all thankful for your moms"?

"I Have Been Humbled"

2010-05-05T10:52:00.000-07:00

Well let me just start by saying what an amazing person Stephanie Nielson is. I do not know her personally, but I follow her blog "Nie Dialouges". You can find it on the left of my blog under freinds and family. I was catching up last night on all the blogs I follow, when I came across this amazing video on Stephanie Nielson. The quick run down is that she is a plane crash survivor along with her husband, she is also a young mother of 4 children. She was severely burned in this crash 85% I believe, her husband was burnt as well 30%. I have never known somebody with so much faith in god SERIOUSLY and the best attitude around. Sure she seems to have her down moments, but she always takes the initiative to pray when she is down and it brings her back to a good place. She has made me realize almost like an "AH HA" moment, that life is honestly about living for what you believe in. It doesn't matter if others shun you because of it, because the truth is when it's all said and done it's about being happy for yourself. She also talks in this video about what it really means to her now to be a mother. I like how she says"I'm not just some lady that gets up in the mornings and makes my kids breakfast, I am their mother and I am priveleged to teach them about the gospel, and raise them as I please." I love that because it is how I feel about raising my babies. I have alot of odds against me in this ugly world to try and teach my children right from wrong. What I think may be right or wrong may not be someone elses same idea, but that is just fine.

I in the past 2 years have discovered through the gospel that there is so much more to life than just your image, looks, pleasing everybody but yourself, worrying what everybody else thinks, material things, and how much money you have. This is just to name a few, but honestly these things I wrote above all mean nothing. The main message I recieved from this video is that life can change in a second, but if you keep one thing consistent then you will get through whatever is thrown your way. I have had alot thrown my way with both my babies in the past year, and I have thanked Heavenly Father everyday for giving beautiful healthy babies. There is no way that my children's lives would have been spared without a god! So please I ask that you watch this video, and then tell me that there isn't such thing as a god that spared this couples lives, it couldn't have happened without something higher. People do not generally survive a plan crash, so you have to ask yourself how did these people. If you don't get what I have mentioned out of this video, then if nothing else it will warm your heart guaranteed.... this was my spiritual message for the week :) please click this link to watch the video, then scroll down to the video that says " My New Life" enjoy http://www.lds.org/ldsorg/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=e419fb40e21cef00VgnVCM1000001f5e340aRCRD

"My Little Goof"

2010-05-02T21:08:00.000-07:00

So Devin is doing so many fun things now!! He is just my little goof, he mimics everthing that you do. His latest is playing peek a boo with everyone. He will cove his face with his hands, and then pull them down when we say there's Devin. It honestly is the cutest thing ever, we taught him last week, and within minutes he picked it up. I can't believe my little man is almost 13 1/2 months now! I'm a little sad that he is growing up so fast already. Every morning I put Devin and Addison in bed with me :) It is the only way I can get them both fed and changed at the same time "yikes". Devin drinks some milk and lays by me and Addi while I finish taking care of her. Once little Addison is back down, then I take Dev downstairs for some cereal and fruit for breakfast. It truly is a crazy life I lead right now, but the truth is I wouldn't change it for anything. I love my babies so much, I couldn't imagine my life now without them. So regardless of how chaotic it may get, it's pictures like the one above that keeps me going. It helps me remember many more of the good moments, rather than focusing on the hard ones :) hope you all had a great weekend, and I will have a new update on Addison soon......

"The Night Before The Diet"

2010-04-17T22:15:00.000-07:00

Well well well here I am sitting in bed at 11:20 at night, blogging ofcourse. These are the only hours I can fit it in if I'm lucky! I thought I would just post the night before my brutal P90X diet that starts tomorrow. As I type I am enjoying some la frontera chips and salsa mmmmm (in bed). If you could see the grease on this bag right now yikes, and yes you have it right I'm going to sleep after gorging myself :) I figure I have to enjoy one last time with my bad eating habits. I really am hoping all the hard workouts (6 days a week) is going to pay off, and I will look like this in a bikini :)......

Ok well if I could even look half this good I would be happy! Here's to P90X don't worry I'm cheersing with water, not my delicious coke! I will give you the update monday on how it is going so far, until then enjoy the beautiful weekend.

"Lock Up Your Daughters"

2010-04-13T21:32:00.001-07:00

Ok so really I don't mean to be bias, but you can't tell me little Devin isn't a stud :) I absolutely loved this picture. It was really funny because it wasn't planned to look like this at all. I just had put the bib on to feed Dev, and he got some sunglasses put on him as well. When I looked over I about died, I had to get a picture of my little stud muffin. I have to say I think he just may be a little lady killer, so parents "Lock up your daughters".

"1 or 2 piece swimsuit"

2010-04-13T07:23:00.000-07:00

So instead of showing the scale with my weight, I'm going to show you Chris and I's new work out plan. It arrived just yesterday!! I am not messing around anymore, I am far past my postpartum, and I am ready to get my body feeling good for summer :) So now I want everyones opinions! I obviously make very small early babies, you all know that. So with that being said I really don't get big, and I have no (baby marks) on my belly. So the question of the day that I want you all to comment on..... Should I still be able to wear my one piece, or two piece swimsuit as a mom of 2 now? I am going to listen to your votes, and try to decide what to do. I wore a 2 piece last year after Devin, I have always wore one, and truly I'm not old I'm 26. I just wanted to take a pole, can't wait to hear all of your opinions.......

"Newborn Pictures Are Here"

2010-04-08T13:46:00.001-07:00

I have to say that these pictures of Addison turned out adorable!! I was so excited when I saw them. I have to give the shout out to my good friend Misha :) she does photography, and might I say what a great job she does. She actually came to my home and took these. They look like studio photos to me. She has really nice equipment, and brought some really cute props. If any of you out there need photos taken, this is your gal. Please contact me and I can get you her number. Thank you so much Mish, me and my fam all LOVE Addi's photos!! Now for the big showing of little Princess Addison.........

"Monday Weigh In"

2010-04-06T21:07:00.000-07:00

Ok so I guess it could be worse, I could have gained right?! I only lost the one pound, but I like to see it going down rather than up! Well granted I did only have 5 days this time in between weigh in.... I know it sounds like I'm making excuses, that's because I am :)..... Until next week I guess I will keep plunking along. I better see a 123 next weigh in!

"Easter Bunny Made A Visit"

2010-04-06T20:49:00.001-07:00

Wow so are kids aren't spoiled or anything right?! I mean look at these piles to wake up to on Easter morning geeeezzzz.....

So we all know that easter is definitely about the big bad rabbit visiting!! So I had to try and find the little cuties easter outfits. I didn't get devin's picture with his outfit, he had been running a 102 fever last week. Needless to say he wasn't in the mood for pictures. As for little miss priss she got an easter dress to wear. It actually was new born size, which was huge on her. I had to get a little creative, so I decided to shrink it :) it worked out pretty well actually.....

We ofcourse had to do the traditional easter egg painting as well....... So the night before I had all of chris's fam and mine over to do eggs with the kids!! It really was fun to have everyone get together. I want my babies to know how important family is, and how lucky they are to have such wonderful grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins! They are the most loved spoiled babies I know personally! Anyhow are little party was a blast so enjoy the pics.....

I hope you all had as great of an Easter as the duncan's "Happy Easter"!!

"Let The Weightloss Begin"

2010-03-30T20:12:00.000-07:00

So this thursday is my 6 week postpartum appt. I really am looking forward to it. I'm hoping that all is good, and I will get the go ahead to be normal again :) now this includes good old working out. I truly cannot wait to be active again. I have literally been stipulated with bed rest since my 25th week of pregnancy uggghhh! Now I finally got my sassy little princess here healthy, and I can focus on my own body a bit. So I am quite embarassed that I put my weight on here, but I figure it will motivate me if I put it out there! So now the weight goal is to get back to what I was at my lowest ( right before getting prego with Addison) drum roll please....... 118lbs. okay okay so it isn't like I didn't get up there in weight this time, I just have dropped alot between delivery and breastfeeding. Amazing how much you lose, from what I understand you burn 500 calories a day pumping, or breastfeeding. I was right at 142lbs the day I delivered. So weeklyI will be weighing myself on Mondays, so watch for the weigh in updates. I am really hoping that 8 lbs wont take that long, but you never know with my obsession with sugary coke right now :).... Until Monday cross those fingers for me!!

"Dev's 1st Birthday"

2010-03-30T13:43:00.001-07:00

I don't have much to say, except that my little man had a blast on his birthday!! I have so many pictures I thought those would be more fun to look at, rather than read a whole lot :) All I do want to say is that I can't believe my baby is the big 1. I don't know where the whole year went, it seems like I was just in the delivery room for him. Devin you are mommy and daddy's special boy, and we couldn't be more in love with you!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

"My Mommy Meltdown"

2010-03-29T12:45:00.000-07:00

So I just have to start by saying this mommy of 2 things is ALOT of work!! now with that being said, I can also say that I wouldn't trade either of my precious babies. I have learned this time around that I guess mommy needs a break too. It has been 7 days now with Addison home, and I think I have had a total of 12-13 hours sleep :) I know I know this looks so appealing to want another baby for all of you out there with just the one. The truth is though that it really is awesome.Although I had a meltdown last night while chris's family was over for dinner. His cute mom started telling me I need to get out more, and have cari time. She was being so nice to me, so nice that I started to cry, how embarassing right?! I guess no sleep and being trapped to my house must have got to me! To give you an idea of my new mommy schedule, I have written it below......... This is my typical day during the week, it's a rough idea anyways!

8:00am- Dev wakes up needs to eat....
8:30am- Addison is awake and ready to eat, still not done feeding devin....
9:00am- Devin has his milk in bed with mommy while Addison gets fed...
9:30am- Lay Addison back down for a couple hours, feed devin the rest of breakfast downstairs..
10:00am- Clean up house while Devin plays with toys in family room...
11:00am- Devin goes down for a nap, but not without a crying fight...
11:30am- Addison wakes up for a bum change and feed....
12:30pm- Love cuddle and stare at little Addi before laying her down AGAIN!!
12:45pm- Like clock work Devin is up from his nap...
1:30pm- Get Devin's lunch ready for him
2-3:30pm- Devin has playtime, with a few tantrums in between :)
3:30pm- Devin goes down for another short nap, finally I think to myself a little quiet with both babies asleep..... Guess again
3:45pm- Addison like clock work is up for another bum change, feed, and cuddle....
4:30pm- lay Addi back down until next time..... Again maybe a breather for a minute with both babies down....
4:45pm- So much for quiet time, Dev is awake from his nap....
5:00pm- Daddy is almost home.....

So there you have it that is my day!! I left out some blowouts, and bad tantrums, or maybe some crying for no reason. It didn't want to scare everyone from having a 2nd baby :) Truth is that I think all I have learned is that I need some me time. As hard as that is for me, it is something that I need to do so I can stay sane while keeping this schedule :) I would really enjoy any stories from my mommy friends on their schedules or mommy melt downs, and I know you have had them............ I appreciate you all letting me vent, can't wait to hear some of your melt down moments.

"How Lucky Am I?"

2010-03-23T22:30:00.000-07:00

So it's 11:30 right now, and it seems that this will be the only time that I can blog.... please take note that both babies are sound asleep right now! I can't believe how good little Addison is, she is just thriving. I feel lucky to be sitting in bed with a free moment to spare :) I really was preparing for the worst chaos when we got our little angel home. It really hasn't been bad, now don't get me wrong I forget to eat sometimes, get out of my pajamas, forget I even need to go to the bathroom, and most of all forget what I used to do with my time without babies. Needless to say with all of that said, I feel so lucky. I mean really I don't even care what I did with my time before I had kids. I figure anything I used to do before doesn't hold a candle to Chris and I's new family we have created. My day to day life would be so boring without all of them in it. I would miss my little Devy's giggles and squeals, especially when he says mama :) Or staring at Addison as she looks at the world around her in awww, most of all my husbands love. All I know is that I feel so lucky to have my family, it is more important than anything to me, it will be there always no matter what. If you haven't noticed how happy I am, just take a look at the pics below, they say it all!

"Welcome Home Addison"

2010-03-21T18:23:00.000-07:00

Well you read it right above, we welcomed our beautiful little Addison home TODAY!!! She came home weighing in at 4lbs 1oz. She is monitor free, and so far wakes like clock work to eat, and then drifts right back to sleep for over 2hours!! I am keeping my fingers crossed that I am going to get another Devin, he was a great baby. She is such a little angel and gift, I could not be happier to have her home finally. Our sweet little Devin seems to think that his new baby sister is pretty neat :) just look below lol!

Although we have only been home 3 hours as I type this, there was already a frantic moment! My sweet husband that he is went to the store to get little Addi some things, and also to pick us up dinner. I'm not going to lie for a breif moment I was nervous to be left home alone with 2 kids! Needless to say it went smoothly, until about 30 minutes in lol.... I heard Addison start fussing on the intercom, Devin had fallen over on the ground and landed on a toy, so he was crying. It's like I had to stop in my tracks and ask myself "Which baby do I go to?" So I sat Devin back up and gave him a bink, then I rushed upstairs to Addi. It went smoothly, I have a feeling I am in for it. Well all I'm sure my stories will just get better from here on out, until then enjoy some more pics below.......

Up to 3lbs 10ozs (What A Monster)

2010-03-16T23:10:00.000-07:00

So I know that is so funny that 3lbs 10ozs is a monster to us, but when you produce 2 pounders it sounds petty good! So the nurses are saying she is gaining like crazy, she is averaging just over 2ozs a day. It looks like we are on the down hill side with the NICU. Thank goodness, because I am thinking I have seen enough of St. Marks Hospital for a WHILE. Chris joked the other night by saying "We don't need to see St. Marks until the 3rd baby". Oh if you all could have seen the look that I gave to him :) and no it wasnt a smiley face. I'm not saying there is no 3rd baby in the future, but maybe in the like 2-3 year future ALEAST! All I know is that my precious little girl is amazing, and she has really shown what a fighter she is. I mean she had alot of odds against her, but she didn't let any of it keep her down. All the nurses in the NICU that I see daily, have decided to name her pixie. They just all think she is a doll, and so girly, sassy, and a trooper. Addison and Devin neither one had an easy road coming into this world, but they have shown me already what amazing people they already are. I feel very lucky to now have 2 healthy children. It is looking like Addison could possibly be in our little home by next week. All they are waiting on is for her to get to 4lbs. The reason for that is so they can make sure she is maintaining her body temperature on her own, once she is she can come home!! I am wiating very patiently to hear those words, but I try not to get my hopes up though. Well until the next update enjoy some pics of Addi in her new stylish hat :)..............

"Big Brother's Gift To Addi"

2010-03-03T15:01:00.000-08:00

I thought it would be so sweet to put a picture of Devin in this giraffe frame for Addison's Incubator. It is a picture of Devin when he was in the NICU. Almost like big brother looking over her saying"I did it Addi, and so can you" :) It was funny the pictures we got of Devin with Addi's gift. He decided in one of them that he wanted to attack and eat the giraffe lol, what a goof ball we have. Honestly Addison is doing amazing, she is moving along so quickly. The nurses are saying she could come home sooner than Devin did if she stays on this track. I don't want to get my hopes up to much though, I learned that things can change in a day in the NICU. I also got to hold my precious bundle for the first time just a few days ago, so I wanted to share some pictures of that too. Daddy also got to hold little Addi too, you can tell by the picture how smitten he is. Addison owns him already, and she doesn't even know it :) My little peanut lost weight at first, and went down to 2lbs 9ozs. She is now back up to 2lbs 12ozs within just a couple of days, so she is gaining again. All I know that this has been a crazy adventure the last month, but I really feel so grateful for everyones help, and also for having two healthy children now! As non pleasant as the whole situation has been, I'm glad I did what I did in that hospital for little Addison. Well all until the next update, please enjoy some pics of my cute babies :)..........

2010-02-26T14:49:00.000-08:00

Addison Lynn Duncan
Born Feb. 24th 2010
Weighing 2lbs 14oz and 16 1/4 inches long

Well the little princess finally made her way into this world, and with a bang of course!!
After a long 3 week stay Addison's little heart rate started to drop. The doctors decided that enough was enough. So that very day they came to my room around 1:00pm to let me know it was time to take her out! Little Addi came out with the cutest smallest cry you have ever heard. Although that was good, she was still needing a little help beathing. So Chris went with her to the NICU, and they ended up putting her on the ventilator. She was so spunky and not wanting to hold still, so they were already calling her princess in the NICU :)
She is our beautiful baby girl, and she was just ready to be here on her time!!

Enjoy some of her pictures below.......

"FINALLY Some Answers"

2010-02-22T23:16:00.000-08:00

So very quickly I just wanted to give a quick update on little Addison. My doctor came and spoke to me this evening, so Chris and I could finally have some answers. She wanted to let us know that they will be doing one more growth scan on little Addi this thursday. It was mentioned that if she looks like she hasn't grown enough, then delivery will be this thursday or friday. The biggest news though finally, is that they will for sure take her next wednesday no matter what. She just wanted us to know that the slightest change at this point would put her here by this friday instead. At least now we finally got some answers, and can plan to meet our baby girl within 6-7 days now. I just cannot wait to meet this little princess of ours. She has definitely made sure that she is the center of attention, and that she wants to remain the focus. I don't know where on earth she would get that trait from :) All I know is that road has been long and exhausting, but I do know I did the right thing for my daughter. I sacraficed everything to be in this hospital for the last 3 weeks, but I can be rest assured that I bought my little angel 3 more weeks in the belly. That is so huge I can't even explain. I haven't even met her yet, and she is already making demands on me :) I love her more than anything though. I can't even begin to picture my life before without my two precious babies. You know what I'm sure I want to though, because my life with my beautiful babies and husband is better than I could have ever pictured it. Well all I will let you know the big news on thursday, until then goodnight!! To be continued........

"Devin's Twin"

2010-02-21T10:18:00.000-08:00

So I had to post about this really quickly. It all started with my brother calling Devin "jack jack". He is the little baby off of The Incredibles movie. We always tease that Dev's ears poke out, but they are so adorable to me of course. Also his big eyes, and the famous mohawk on top :) So I found a picture of "jack jack" online, and wanted to post it next to a picture of Devin. I needed to have a post for a minute that was fun, and not about bed rest. So let's see what you all think: Does Devin look like "jack jack"? Leave your comment :).........

"Our Valentines Day"

2010-02-16T22:17:00.000-08:00

I must say this was the first valentines day that we didn't really do something together. Normally Chris and I don't do tons anyways, but we would go to dinner, or exchange nice cards. Don't get me wrong I like valentines day, but I feel like you should be treating your spouse sweet all year. It is nice to though to be reminded how much you love eachother :) So I got a little creative at the hospital, Since I'm condemned to my room I could only do so much. I took Items from my room that had to do with the hospital. I pasted them all over a poster board, and then made up a cute little poem myself :)
Chris on the other hand of course gave me a beautiful gift. He gave me a sterling silver bracelet with Devin and Addison's name engraved on top, and a a dangling charm that says love. He had been working on it for a long while, and really put a lot of thought into it. He had ended up giving it to me friday night, mainly because we thought we were delivering Addi. Chris told me he really wanted me to have it when I delivered. It was such a thoughtful gift from my sweet hubby. Thank you babe for taking so much time, and giving a really meaningful gift :) Chris ended up staying with me the night at the hospital. Chris brought me a chocolate bananna shake from iceberg, and we watched the movie "Couples Retreat". Even though our lives are chaos right now, it was really refreshing to enjoy a simple evening with my husband. It took all my stress away, even if it was just for one night. I really just love my little family, and can't wait to add Addison to the mix. She just doesn't know what she is in for. Thanks again sweetie for our valentines date at the hospital, you are the greatest :)

"My Heart Is Broken"

2010-02-15T16:45:00.000-08:00

I just wanted to take a moment and write while I was full of emotions. We had Addison's growth scan today. The good news is that she is hanging in there, and they think they may get her to 34 weeks. The bad news is that I have to remain in the hospital until then (2 more weeks). I titled this post what I did because it is so true. My heart truly is broken right now. I wanted to take a minute to talk about Devin, and how precious HE is to me. I until now had never been away from him more than a couple of hours. I have now been away from him for 2 weeks straight. I understand I get to see him, but maybe for an hour at a time. During that time everyone is holding him and taking care of him. I don't ever really feel like I am being his mom right now. For all of you that are moms with me I know you can understand what I am saying. It is the most awful feeling to let everyone cuddle, feed, bathe, and love on your child. It's like they are playing your role while you watch. It reminds me so much of when Devin was in the NICU. I already have to deal with it again when Addi gets here, but I am getting a double wammmy right now with Devin too. My heart just hurts so bad everytime they pack him up, and say okay tell mommy bye. My eyes well up and I try so hard not to cry. I feel like somebody has taken part of me away, and I have no way to fix it right now. I can't even just step out of my room to walk down the hall. I just love my baby boy so much, and I miss him so much. Not to mention having no relationship with my husband what so ever right now. He does everything for me and is the best ever. Between my two boys my heart just aches right now with sadness. Worse part of all with the whole thing, is that I am still going to have a NICU baby on top of all of this. How much more can I handle...... I really am starting to feel like I am going into some deep depression here. Everyone is so kind too, they always ask "What can we do to cheer you up?" I wish I knew how to answer them. All I want right now is to be home, and nobody can give me that. What I miss most about being home is laying down with Chris at night, and waking up to my baby on the intercom giggling and cooing. I haven't heard that sound in so long, I miss his smile when I walk in to pick him up. I could go on and on about all the things I miss. All I know is that right now my poor heart is broken. Until next time...........

"DELIVERY???"

2010-02-14T10:34:00.000-08:00

Wow!!! That is how I have to start this post. So Friday night things seemed to go bad, and quickly at that. Chris and I were visited in my room by the maternal fetal doc. All he started with was: "We are sending you to labor and delivery"....... I just knew what was coming next. He continued with: "I want to monitor her hear rate consistently, and if anything looks funny we will deliver TONIGHT!! So I of course starting getting really worked up and frantic. It was just then that the nurse walked in with my wheelchair to move me down. Once I got down there they would not let me eat, drink nothing. Before you get a C-section you cannot eat or drink for 6 hours before. So in preparation for that I was left starving and thirsty. They also have to put an IV in to give fluids, and antibiotics before. Well let me just tell you that was the worst part of my night.

I was so dehydrated from not getting to drink, that it made it so difficult to get my IV in. It took until the 4th time of being poked and prodded to find a good vein. I was almost in tears, and my blood pressure had skyrocketed to 160/90. The nurse asked me to calm down and take deep breaths. You can imagine at this point I wasn't to interested in what she had to say. So after all the excitement calmed and Addi was on the monitor, our family all left and let us get some sleep. I would like to think I was going to get sleep, but what a joke that was. With a blood pressure cuff on, monitors on my belly, and a hip roll under my back it wasn't going so well. I just stared at Addi's hear rate all night needles to say. After finally falling asleep, we were woke up by the doctor at 7:00am. We were expecting after all this preparation to here we are delivering her. Oh don't worry the doctor came in and said: "You know she looks spectacular on the monitor, so we are sending you back upstairs sorry." I wanted to burst into tears at this point. I have now been living at the hospital for 11 DAYS, and let me just say it is something different everyday. I know that they are just trying to find the right moment, but meanwhile it puts us through hell. The best way they have described is that they don't want to take her out sick, and they don't want to wait for something horrible to happen.

So we are walking a fine line of when to take her out. My doctor wants to take her while she is still healthy, but it needs to be enough change to take her. I know this must all sound confusing, now imagine hearing this day in day out while living at the hospital. I feel so shut off from the world right now, and I feel so trapped living in my little hospital room. Well the only positive at this point is that she has made it to almost 32 WEEKS :) None of the doctors thought she would even make 31, let alone 32. We also have another big appointment tomorrow(her growth scan). That will really help make the doctors minds up we think. She hasn't been growing, so we don't think she has done much since her last appt. She was 2lbs 3oz 12 days ago, so we will see what she is tomorrow. Thanks all for listening to my venting, I just start going stir crazy with all of these emotions. I just wish I could enjoy being pregnant with Addi and feeling her little movements. It never happens though, because it's always how strong were her kicks, how often is she moving etc... I can't just enjoy a simple kick from my baby girl. It really is hard sometimes when you just wish to not be pregnant anymore. I know that isn't how it should be, so that is why I get so down on it sometimes. Thank you all again for listening, and until tomorrow...... To be continued.......

"Visiting Mommy At The Hospital"

2010-02-11T10:31:00.000-08:00

Well of course the highlights of my day right now are seeing my two boys (Chris and Dev). I don't know what I would do without them. My baby boy is such a happy baby all the time. He has even been fighting a cold, and still HAPPY! I don't know why I was blessed with such a good kid, but I think Addison is going to give us a run for our money! The girl has more than fight in there, she has lots of spunk too. Chris, my mom, and his mom all came to visit last night. It was really nice, and the best was that they brought me La Frontera mmmmmm. Hospital food has been alright, but it's nice to get some outside food right now. I just thought I would put some cute pictures of me and my baby boy on here. I was feeding him chocolate ice cream last night, and he would growl when I would stop (so cute). We had to get it on video, so I had chris film me feeding him. The video wasn't allowing me to put it on right now, but enjoy all this pics below instead :)..........

"Surviving Hospital Bed Rest"

2010-02-10T09:10:00.000-08:00

So it has been decided that I have to remain in the hospital until Addison arrives. Chris and I had some very hard decisions to make last night. Our doctor had come by to give us some options. The main problem we were having, was deciding whether to go home or not. See it's a problem when the doctors are saying yo can go home, but the best place would probably be here. So then it becomes my decision, which I hate because I really want to be home. Well there was an option given to us that would help decide. Basically the doctors were suggesting we do a "CST" test on little Addi. This test is what they like to call the contraction stress test. It is when they put some pitocin in you to induce labor and allow for contractions to come on. Once you start having these contractions they want to see how much it stresses the baby, and if the heart rate drops during. Also the other main reason is to see how crappy my placenta really is for her. Now for a brief moment I thought about doing it, mainly because I knew it would make my decision easier about going home or not. Then I came back down to earth and realized how selfish that would be of me. Why would I want to stress my 2lb baby girl, that mind you may not come out of the stress when the test is over. Well I decided I didn't want to stress her, obviously she has enough of that already.

So now I just have to take a reality check and realize that I am going to be here until she is born. It could be 2 days right now, or it could be a weeks worth. It's all up to Addi how long she wants to hang in there for us. To be honest I am glad I stayed now. It was just this morning that she decided to have drops in her heart rate. I guess everything happens for a reason right, because if I would have gone home they wouldn't have caught that. At this point Chris and I are just trying to stay positive with the whole situation, and keep our other baby content at home. We are just looking at the long term, and can't wait to have our little girl home finally. She is a fighter just like her brother was. We may make our babies small, but we make them strong. So until Addi's next latest update wish us luck!! We are just still praying for our baby girl to get here safe and as healthy as possible! To be continued.......

"Landed In The Hospital"

2010-02-06T09:55:00.000-08:00

That is right you read it correctly, I am in the hospital on bed rest for now. It all started wednesday at one of are weekly appointments. They had ran another growth scan on little Addison, and she only grew 2oz in 2 weeks. She also failed one of her major tests, so that was it they sent me to labor and delivery. I think the intention was to get me prepped for delivery. They wanted to run a drug through IV called magnesium sulfate. It is to help with her brain development, and to help prevent cerebral palsy. They usually let that run 24hours before delivery. Well let me just tell you all that drug was hell, it made me sicker than a dog. Meanwhile they were running Addi's heart rate on a monitor, she was looking really good. So instead of immediate delivery they decided to keep me until Monday for consistent monitoring. They are going to re-run the test on her Monday morning. If she fails again then I stay, if she passes I can go home on super strict bed rest. This has just been a roller coaster ride, I can't even begin to describe how I feel. I am sitting in my hospital room right now typing and going nuts. I Miss my baby boy so bad. This is the first time I have had to leave him for so long, I mean it will be 5 days Monday. I have never left him overnight before either, so that has been a challenge for me. I just hope and pray I can go home Monday to continue strict bed rest. I don't know when this will all be over, but I am hoping soon. I am just emotionally drained, and exhausted with the whole situation. Chris and I have been doing this for 7 weeks now constantly. It never leaves my mind, and I am just waiting to hear the go ahead to deliver. Until I have more news I will be in the hospital for now, to be continued..............

"We Made It To Monday"

2010-01-30T12:26:00.000-08:00

Well it looks like from what the doctors are saying, little Addison should have been here last week. Considering her condition they can't believe that she is hanging in there. She is a fighter, that is what all nurses at maternal fetal medicine say about her. So I guess right now it is just a wait game, we know it is coming soon. If we can get her to Tuesday, then we will have hit 30 wks. That would be unbelievable, considering they were predicting 28-29wks for her. She is going to be a sassy one I'm afraid. I just want this to all be over, it has really taken a toll on Chris and I. We aren't interested in another stressful pregnancy ANYTIME SOON!!! Thank you all again for checking in, I appreciate all of your offers to help. Monday is another big appt, so I will be putting up a post for that as well. To be continued.........

"When WIll Baby Addison Be Here"

2010-01-28T11:06:00.000-08:00

Well you read it right "Addison" that is what Chris and I have decided to name baby girl. We have been so busy with doctor appts 4-5 days a week right now! It is really getting down to the wire. Things are really starting to diminish, it is just a matter of time now. We think we have Addison weighing in around 2lbs even. That also is basing off of a somewhat inaccurate growth scan last Friday. So really she could be even slightly less too. Anyhow I saw my OB today and my belly has now quit growing all together. We are getting very stressed with each appt, it is just basically waiting until which one goes wrong. She is so borderline with everything, that if even one little thing is off, they will deliver her. So as much as we want to keep little Addi in there as long as possible, we are getting exhausted with the waiting game. I have another slue of tests tomorrow they will run on Addi, I will let you all know what is said. The main concern right now is her low amniotic fluid. Normal good fluid should measure around 10-22cm, but hers is coming in at roughly 6. It is dropping slowly but surely, so one little wrong move and bam she is here. Now you can see why these appts are so stressful I'm sure. Well until I have the latest update tomorrow, I will talk to you all soon. I really thank you all again for your kindness and prayers, it is so amazing how everybody pulls together in these situations. It is more than appreciated by Chris and I. Please continue to pray for Addison, we have got this far now (29 weeks). To be continued............

Devin 10 Months

2010-01-20T17:44:00.000-08:00

I cannot even believe that my little little man is so big now!!! Who would have known this little firecracker was a 3lb preemie (what preemie). I just wanted to show some super cute pics of Dev that I took this afternoon. I am killing my bed rest time enjoying my little man, because once baby girl is here it will be chaos. So for now I'm soaking up my precious mommy time with Devin. Devin is now eating all the foods chris and I eat. In fact his newest thing I discovered today that he likes, is strawberry yogurt. He just wanted the whole thing, and would get mad when I started eating it without him. I think he is so much fun now. Don't get me wrong this age is getting harder, but seriously so much fun. He mimics everything chris and I do now, and he has yelling matches with us. He just is so curious and so smart. I could not have asked god for a more healthy, bright, beautiful, happy baby. I have not one single complaint about this little dude! Enjoy the pics below.......

"Rocky News"

2010-01-15T17:29:00.001-08:00

So the latest for all that have been wondering. We had baby girls ultrasound and growth scan on Wednesday. She was two weeks prior in the 11th percentile for weight, and weighed 1lb 5oz. She was now 1lb 10oz, and dropped to the 6th percentile. So what happened is what we did not want to happen. She is more than likely going to be delivered in the next two weeks, she would only be 29 weeks, and roughly 1lb 15oz. She did not pass her two tests today that she needed to, so we have to return to labor and delivery tomorrow to repeat them. If she doesn't pass again then I will have to be admitted to the hospital for the duration of the pregnancy. I pray honestly that she can pass tomorrow. The doctors are not wanting her born before 29 weeks, it can be alot worse just those two weeks will make a huge difference for her. I am now running through my head all of the problems she could have medically etc... I am really starting to get scared of what is to come. We could be looking at anywhere from a 60-90 day NICU stay! Please all say a nice prayer for baby girl if you think about it. I am so nervous and all I have right now is prayer, and putting everything in gods hands. I believe that he doesn't give you more than you can handle, so why this I cannot answer. For whatever reason though he thinks Chris and I will get through it, and handle it the best that we can. I will either be home tomorrow to blog her tests results, or I will be getting put in the hospital for a while. Thank you all again for you love and support lately it means more than you know to our little family. We are regardless excited to meet our precious baby girl, and we will love her no matter what. Until tomorrow to be continued..........

"Zoo Lights"

2010-01-12T14:31:00.000-08:00

We decided a few weeks ago to go see zoo lights with my family. It was really cold, but alot of fun. Devin was such a good boy, didn't make a sound like usual. I thought he might fuss a little being how cold it was, but nope he didn't. We bundled him up like the kid from christmas story lol!! He was a ball of blankets and clothes. I'm pretty sure the poor little guy couldn't move :) If any of you didn't get to go this year, check it out next season it's really fun!

The Duncan's Christmas 09'

2010-01-12T14:13:00.000-08:00

I thought I needed to blog some fun stuff for once. Lately all I have been blogging is about our stresses with baby girl. I think it has slipped my mind what a fun christmas season we had with our sweet baby boy!! So I don't have to much to say other than we were SPOILED ROTTEN like usual. Devin and baby girl were more than spoiled, you will be able to tell by their piles. I hope you all had a great christmas enjoy the pictures......

"My OB's Decision"

2010-01-04T07:53:00.000-08:00

Well I saw my OB and we are in a waiting game right now. Basically in a nutshell my doctor told me that she thinks we will be delivering fairly early. We have another ultrasound on jan 13th, if baby girl has fallen in percentile again, then we will start steroid shots. The shots are to get her lungs prepped for delivery. I will only be 27 weeks at my next ultrasound, so they are wanting to try and keep her in there until 30-31 aleast. We are praying we can get that out of her if nothing else. My doctor has put me to bed rest at 90% down throughout the day. This is has been quite the task with a 9 1/2 month old, and doing work from home. I see my OB again this coming thursday, she has me seeing her every week right now. So I may have more info. from that if anything changes. Thanks all for the comments and prayers for baby girl. I appreciate having such kind friends and family. This has been a very emotionally draining situation. With Devin everything was so much more abrupt, and he was further along so it wasn't as stressful. There has just been so many doctors this time, and ups and downs. It just can get exhausting with time. I'm learing quickly how my pregnancies go, and it makes me sad that I will never experience a smooth full term pregnancy. I just look at this is as one of my own personal challenges in life. It's all in how you handle it right? Well until I have more info and next time, thank you all again for everything.

"Baby Girl's Ultrasound"

2009-12-30T18:44:00.000-08:00

Well I thought I would start this post with the good news first. Today we went to see how baby girl had grow, well she was at 1lb 5oz. This means that she gained 5oz which seems good. Her movemets are well, and her heart sounds good. So now for a little bad news I guess you could say. Baby girl is now measuring 2 weeks behind, where as two weeks ago she was only measuring 1 week behind. So she has gone backwards in that area. Also before she was falling in the 16th percentile for size, but today she went into the 11th percentile. So she is definitely going backwards, even though she has grown some. I just know in my heart that there is something more to this. So tomorrow is my actual appointment with my OB, she has great judgement and I trust her. I will know tomorrow on really how this pattern is going, and she is going to strict bed rest me or not. So ofcourse I only have some answers for now. Atleast she grew some, instead of not at all. I just can't see past the fact that she keeps falling behind more and more each time. Thank you for all your concerns and prayers. This has been an ongoing thing, and it is getting stressful and exhausting. I will have more info again tomorrow for everyone, so check for that. Talk to you all tomorrow.

"Prayers For Baby Girl"

2009-12-23T13:35:00.002-08:00

I just have to start by saying that, there is no such thing as to soon for prayers. I had done an update on December 18th saying baby girl is small. She is still small, but we found another bit of news that was a little discerning. My dr. appt was this Monday, and I was told that my uterus hasn't grown now since November 30th. That is definitely one of the main signs of growth restriction in the fetus. The main problem is that this happened with devin, but it didn't happen with him until 30 weeks. I am only 24 weeks right now, and I'm afraid that this is happening alot sooner with little girl. Which the result of this can mean an even earlier delivery than devin, if you don't remember he was born at 33 weeks. Anything below that just really scares me to death. There are so many things that could be wrong if they are born earlier. I just pray, and I hope you all will to that we can get her here safe and healthy. I am praying to get to atleast 30 weeks, if we get further, then it is just a plus. Please all I know it's christmas and you are all busy, but please pray for my baby girl. Chris and I already love her more than she knows. We appreciate all your love and help that we were already given with devin. I will have real answers december 30th, and I will be posting more then.

"Seeing Santa For The First Time"

2009-12-21T22:49:00.000-08:00

I knew devin would only be 8 1/2 mos old when we took him to see santa, but I had to see his reaction. It was the funniest thing, he just kept staring at him. The few pictures that we did get of him looking at us, were like a deer caught in headlights. Devin seems to give this look alot in pictures. I am just so excited to have kids now for christmas's, it makes you remember what it was like. I think it makes christmas fun again, I am a kid myself at heart alot of the times. I just hope that we can make some fun traditions with our own new little family. I can't wait for our little girl to get here, so we can enjoy a son and a daughter next year for christmas. It will just be double the fun, and a little bit of chaos :)

All bundled up to go home after the fun adventure to see santa!!

"Devin's New Christmas PJ's"

2009-12-21T22:38:00.000-08:00

Dev's grandma marcario gave him these christmas pj's. They are the cutest I think. I just love the little reindeer on his feet. I know everybody thinks that their kids are the cutest, and I guess I'm no different :) He looks the CUTEST in these pj's though. I love having christmas this year with devin, he is such a happy loving little guy. I could not ask for a better baby really. I guess this is why #2 is on the way, we base alot off of devin. I have a bad feeling we could be in for it with our sassy little girl. Devy doo mommy and daddy love you so much, and can't wait for christmas morning with you :)

Baby Girl Is Small

2009-12-18T12:01:00.000-08:00

Well well well here we go again. Unfortuntely this time we are hearing about this sooner than Devin. Which at the same time is good so that we can try to slow the process of growth restriction, if that is what's happening. So the story is we went to the hospital for an ultrasound, and were told that she is small. Basically they judge everything off of percentages, and she is in the 16th percentile. Babies that are considered growth restricted are in the 10th percentile. So at this point doctors are not calling it that yet, but she is right on the borderline. We go back Dec. 30th for another ultrasound, I will be 25 weeks then. They will have a much better idea if her growth pattern is continuing in the wrong direction. For now I have been put on modified bed rest, which I have to say is not fun at all. It drives me nuts to not be able to get up and do my simple cleaning etc.... I just thought I would give you all some insight as to why I have been behind on blogging lately. I have been preoccupied with devin ofcourse, and now baby girl being a little sassy in my belly :) We hope the best and just want to get her safely, even if she is small and early again. I mainly just want her healthy and home sooner rather than later. Well I will have more posts of a little more fun stuff. I'm working on it this weekend, until then talk to you all soon.

"Devin And Sister's Room"

2009-11-17T10:21:00.000-08:00

Well nothing is set in stone yet, but I have a good start on "little girls" side of the room. So Devin and her will be sharing a room for a while, so they can both be close to mommy and daddy :) So Devins side if you all remember is very boy with fishing decor, take a look below......

So as for "little girls" side we are going with a zoo theme. On her wall it will read: Goin' to the zoo with mom... there will be a purple elephant on one side, and an orange giraffe on the other. so I have a preview picture below, no writing on the wall yet, but try to envision it :)...

These are some bibs that my mom bought baby girl for her 1st halloween, in my belly anyways :) I would love some opinions or thoughts on the room. any opinions of how I can spice it up cute would be great thanks!

Baby Girl Results

2009-11-17T10:18:00.000-08:00

Good news so far everyone!!! No preeclampsia at this point, I am so excited. Doesn't mean it can't still show up, but I want to keep a positive attitude on it for now. I would be happy getting a baby to 36-37 weeks at this point, so fingers crossed I will get a full term baby girl this time. She is already sassy and stubborn, I have a feeling she isn't coming out anytime soon :)

"Baby #2 Update"

2009-11-12T20:15:00.000-08:00

ok well this is a good and bad update. Iwill give you the short version of the story. Im 18 weeks almost 19 now. So on Tuesday evening I noticed I had a little bit of swelling in my ankles, not alot but enough that I noticed. So I pressed on my ankle to see if there was any indenting, which usually means some water is there. Well sure enough there was and I ofcourse freaked out inside, mainly because the same thing was happening when I was pregnant with devin. So I called my doctor on Wednsday morning, and they immediately got on the situation. My doctor ordered a 24 hour urine sample that I had to do from home. So I started that Thursday morning (today) I take it back into my doctor friday morning, then have to do blood as well. The urine is to determine if there is alot of protein present. It is one of the main beginning signs of preeclampsia. Anyhow I should hopefully have the results by monday, possibly Friday late afternoon. I will keep you all updated to let you know where things are at and how they are going. Wish us luck, I really am not in the mood for another growth restricted baby in the NICU.

"The Football Team"

2009-11-12T16:34:00.000-08:00

I just realized that I haven't posted are little family in our halloween costumes. Devin had to wear his cute little helmet anyways, so we decided to make him a football player. I was the cheerleader, and chris was the coach. If you cant tell by the photos he is a fan of BYU. Are fist halloween with devin finally here was so much fun, last year this time he was still in my belly :) we just went to the grandparents houses, and to some friends houses to see their cute baby. Look how cute below Devin an Linkoln look.

So this next one is the whole family, are own little football team :).........

We then headed up to see the grandparents aunties and uncles, that was so much fun for everyone to see Devin on his 1st halloween. Enjoy all the pics below.............

"Devin's First Pumpkin Carving"

2009-11-06T22:38:00.000-08:00

This was so much fun to do with our son this year. Ever since I have known chris, which is 9years now. His family has always done pumpkin carving every year, I have always loved this tradition. This year though was even more special, because it was with our little Devin. Chris and I decided to do it our house and have both of the grandparents over. They ofcourse were so excited to be there for Devin's first pumpkin carving. These pictures below were the start of the evening getting all the pumpkins ready...

So once we got done doing all 7 pumpkins 4 of them were Chris and I's. We made a little family of pumpkins this year, and added accessories to describe all of us. So this picture below in order is chris, me, devin, and the new baby girl :) I know I know kind of cheesy, but I have kind of become that way now that I am a mom. I feel like I have become a kid again myself, and I have to say I am loving it. Christmas will be the best this year I can't wait. Sorry I went away from the picture :) enjoy it below....

"Game Night"

2009-11-06T22:13:00.000-08:00

Chris and I would do game nights here and there with scrabble before little devin got here. It wasn't often, but it was a little more in the winter time when there is nothing to do. So the night started out really good, and cute little devin was being sooo good as usual. Well that was true until he went into a tantrum out of nowhere yikes!! It was a good one he was just screaming and crying. I tried the binky, I tried pacing, I tried rocking. Nothing and I mean nothing was calming him down. Finally Chris and I layed him down on our bed and started reading him a book, we didn't know what else to do. Well if you can imagine something as simple as the book worked lol. I think it is so funny because really nothing else was working for my mad little baby. We read him the book "The five little pumpkins" he loved it. So it was a nice thought for chris and I to sit down for game night and popcorn with no interruptions ( yeah right ) :) Enjoy the pictures below of our fun evening!

100% Confirmation

2009-10-29T21:06:00.000-07:00

Well you read it right, it's 100% for sure we are HAVING A GIRL!!!!! I just wanted to let everyone know I told you I would. :) Goodnight for now.